Fairytale Illusion

It’s just sad

Knowing you are out there

But with no courage

And no energy for all drama

I know life goes on

We move on

And its not difficult

It feels fine

But some days

You just miss it

You don’t know what

But you miss dearly

Because you loved dearly

Even if he never thought that I did

I did really care

But maybe letting go is what you must

Leaving them for their good

Not bringing them to your life

Not telling them your problems

Maybe that is how is has to be

But its just that

Every seconds you think of them

You smile and shed tears

Not because you got so weak

All because, you wish them good

And you let them go

And have them their peace

Because it’s better this way

Else you would face the bitter

Take the cheatings, have the breaks

Still loving them more, more than your inner being

Somedays you gotta choose

Your self respect or your love

When they laugh at you

Telling you never cared for them

Or, they had issues with all the trust

For such big things that you tried so hard

For the things you think would die

When they tell you on your face

About how you were always wrong

When it pinches just so bad

You don’t choose them for what they are

You let them go

Because you loved real bad

But they hurt you good

And that’s how an illusion ended

A fairytale illusion that you think would work

But you lost yourself all your hope

When you give up on the midway

For someone who never trusted,

For you didn’t ever do it wrong

Tried so hard to not bring things.

Tried very hard to get strong

With piercings all over you

One fine day, you just give up

You let them go

Because you got no energy now

Nothing to lose

Nothing to gain

Life just ends this way or that

But someone who doesn’t care

Mayve you drop the love

Held the head high

But for some days, you lose over love

You miss them dearly

To close your eyes

Held them close, close to heart

Kiss them and try to take pain away

You only wish, if you could give

Almost everything you could

Take all their pain and make them happy

Some old days, some rainy days

For all time sake

You let them go.

You choose yourself for its bad

Bad what they think of you

Bad what they question you

Bad that they always doubted

Bad that it’s so wrong

To demean someone so wrong

So at the end, you lose it all

My very own fairytale illusion!!